“Who Do You Want To Be?”

Strange — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 11:23:32 +0000

I ask myself this question every morning when I wake up. It’s an important question, because I can’t say it was ever really one I was encouraged to ask while I was growing up. Back then my family had all sorts of grand plans for me (ie: doctor, lawyer, etc.) and seemingly didn’t notice that I didn’t share their enthusiasm about them. I guess, simply put, I’ve been the black sheep for a very long time. An artist among labourers. For years, this weighed heavily on me. I second-guessed myself and my achievements. Constantly trying to figure out why my accomplishments were still not good enough. In the end, I just started to become more and more frustrated and unhealthy and unhappy, even though I was out there kicking ass and living my dreams. It was something of an emotional catch-22.

Then, not too long ago, there came a day – I suppose one always comes eventually – where I realized just how far down the rabbit hole I had fallen. And that this was certainly nowhere I’d ever wanted to be – mentally or emotionally. I, perhaps better than a lot of people, know what can happen when you don’t take good care of your mental heath. (Hell, it killed my mom. ) That day, “who do you want to be?” became the most important question in the world. And this resurrection of StrangeAngel.net is the first public outgrowth of the answer I found. This will be my space to explore and evaluate the personal journey I have embarked on. It’s a place where the black sheep gets to have her say.

Three months ago, I made the commitment to live well, live healthy, and strive to become a better person with each passing day. I have a family of my own now and it’s our turn to decide how we will live and what we will value.

I’m not perfect. I’m human. This blog is about learning to come home to oneself.

Enjoy…